chapter four; to be forgotten , forever . @ 2:02:00 AM
i need to realise something before i hurt myself badly .
love , it will never exist for me again
and i , will need to survive through the hurt and pain of a teenager
its a total eclispse in the heart of mine .
i will not let guys in directly and play with my feelings .
even if they try their very best .
my heart will be enclosed and locked for the rest of my life .
for now , nothing exciting will be going on this year .
as i said before .
i dont believe in love again
im going to be the one who will be forgotten and will be forgotten forever .
guys are idiots .
they break hearts .
like mine and leave without a goodbye .
i will still befriend guys ,
but i'll make sure , that i would not fall for one .
its hard , i know .
but i've got to get back onto my two feet .
although i like him , its a one sided love affair .
chances of guys liking me , zero .
no , im not like the girl of dreams or anything .
i couldnt give them what they want and i dont want to .
im going to be tough and strong ,
i believe that i can walk this earth alone without a man by myside
i dont want to be played around with my feelings and get into trouble .
like i said , im going to be forgotten , forever .
