chapter fifty two ; death and regrets . @ 12:34:00 AM
and it all ends up back again .
just when i found out that my heart is at peace again ,
somehow , it has to be broken .
i know i was goddamn irritating to you and everyone .
i know i was goddamn annoying to the core to you and everyone .
i know i should have not contacted you and did all those things to you .
i know i shouldnt have made you waste a friend's day by having him hear you complain for 20 mins
i know i shouldnt texted you , making you annoyed and thus , you showing everyone my text messages and saying how irritated you are .
the list goes on , but these are a few things i wanna say .
you left me empty , apparently .
and im kinda wondering why tell me all those things about yourself if you were planning to backstab me in the end .
and all i thought was that my heart was mending ... because of you .
but i should have seen the signs ,
but no , i was blinded by your actions and words .
shouldnt have took it for real ,
but whatever it is , i seriously thought you were my friend .
someone i had a crush on .
someone to talk to .
its okay , i kinda get it .
so this is it .
i guess i shouldnt contact all of you anymore .
if what im doing for you all isnt enough , then tell me .
what is enough for you ?
