SHINee ♥

ONEW ★ TAEMIN ★ JONGHYUN ★ MINHO ★ KEY
Hello Hello,
Nareumdaero yonggil naesseoyo ( I brought up all my courage this time )
Hello, Hello
Jamshiyaegi hallaeyo ( Can I talk to you for a moment ? )
Hello, Hello
Naega jom seodooljin mollado ( I may be rushing in my words a bit )
Who knows? Eojjeom oorin ( Who knows ? We might )
Jal dwaeljido molla (End up doing well )

ive made my decision ,
im going to the hospital tomorrow and take my blood test .
but all i ever know is that , i will get the bad results again .
just like how i get the past 2 years .

im scared .
im fully scared .
im freaking scared .
sometimes , i dont want to have this medical condition .
im scared .

scared of finding out that i might have kidney failure , gangere and whatsoever .
i feel like crying . i need someone's shoulder . i need to feel warmth , love and care .
i want to cry . i want to scream . i need adrenaline rush .
i need a distraction . i dont want to eat anymore .
this is like another heartbreak , except its done by me to me .

im letting myself die . slowly , suffering badly .
im letting my vital organs die .
im letting my blood vessels clot in me .
im letting my eyesight to be gone .

why ?
why ?
why ?
i dont know .
maybe its the pressure from all around me .
how silent arguements happen because of me .
how friendships are torn apart because of what i did .
how everything just doesnt fall into place because of what i did .

im scared .
the choice ?
i hope its not too late to make my final choice that determine my future or my grave .

샤이니 ★ SHINee