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ONEW ★ TAEMIN ★ JONGHYUN ★ MINHO ★ KEY
Hello Hello,
Nareumdaero yonggil naesseoyo ( I brought up all my courage this time )
Hello, Hello
Jamshiyaegi hallaeyo ( Can I talk to you for a moment ? )
Hello, Hello
Naega jom seodooljin mollado ( I may be rushing in my words a bit )
Who knows? Eojjeom oorin ( Who knows ? We might )
Jal dwaeljido molla (End up doing well )

Its been quite a while since I last updated my blog.
Well, here i am updating it since I have the time to.
things have been spiralling down for me.

i really thought things would go well but i have been falling sick day by day.
firstly, my kidney is almost at the edge of failing me. why? its my fault, i have to say. yeah, of course, who else who have diabetes except me right? typical me would just ignore my own condition and go on, but I really didn't give the thought it would happen so fast. *shrugs* my fault to blame. but im still alive and breathing.

second, i have water in my lungs. i have been coughing for the past two months and it never healed. or go away for that matter. the coughs got real bad and worse. I thought it was asthma but doctor told me it is something like pneunomia. i think thats how you spell it. either way, im still coughing and its not getting better.

thirdly, im away for the holiday now, but the thing is, its not an entirely fun holiday. Raudha, my second youngest sister have totally changed. I feel so outcasted whenever she starts laughing and cracking jokes with Khai and Shukor, who are my dad's colleagues but we treat them like our own brothers. well, the thing is, they have no idea how i feel. Raudha have changed. Into a more cold and heartless person.

I don't even recognise my own sister anymore. Is it because both of us are taking O levels together? probably. But still...I miss the old her. I really do. whenever i need a friend, i would always find her. but now, its even harder to start a topic without getting her growling and snarling at me.

life is hard too. nothing seems to be helping me. am i at the verge of failing my own self? i dont know. my parents doesn't seem to always be there. i would always end up being alone. why? Is God trying to tell me something?

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